The seasons of a blasphemous soul!

Oh let the breeze flow,
And slap my face.
For all they show,
Is emotional disgrace.

Oh let it rain,
And hide my tears.
For my strength's gonna drain;
I'm living my fears.

Oh let it snow,
And blend the cold.
For i'm numb and low;
With no warm hold.

Oh let the sun shine,
And burn my soul.
For things're no longer fine;
Inside me I feel a hole.

Oh let it storm,
And ruin me.
For the norm;
Made by thee.

Disguise!

I see hostile faces and people
Wherever my eyes go.
A stone in the water causes ripple
And I really feel low...

Everything seems to be disguised
Good things get easily sliced.
Tears are surely enjoying the masquerade
I feel like a statue to be looked at a parade...

The disguised intentions
Hidden tensions
Broken relations
Are all nothing but sensations...

Even being depressed is a crime
Wearing a disguise is kinda important to dine.
Being too good can put you in a long line
Because happiness comes with water saline...

Tough Life!

Life could be so tough;
Never had a thought so rough.
Was absorbed in my dreams;
May be that's why i missed the sparkling streams.

Had a misconception about fantasies;
Thought they were something more than stories.
But I was wrong like everything else;
Every good thing in life is false.

Had unfathomable faith and was a theist;
Faith got shattered and now am pantheist.
Every fictional word is impossible to exist;
That's why its fictional and that's the whole gist.

It took some time to realize;
Practicality is the only thing to specialize.
It is no help to be dreamy and immature;
Just adapt realism and wisdom in your nature....

I Dream!

I dream of things that are really good,
But when I wake up, I am in a distressed mood.
Why are the dreams mere imagination,
Our mind falling for sweet temptation.

I dream of earning name and fame,
But in real they are difficult to claim.
They are nothing but dreams,
They flow away just like streams.

I dream and dream of my wish,
Its not gonna be true like a magical swish.
Dreams are a mixture of sweet and sour,
We always see it with a hope of more..

The evil inside!

It creeps onto you;
Like devil.
It makes you do;
Things so evil.

For some it's greed, for some it's lust;
A curse in disguise at it's worst.
But still some crave;
For the danger grave.

It lurks in dark;
But you see it bright.
It is not something stark;
But a fearful flight.

It'll make you go wild;
A tantrum throwing child.
You'll cry and beg and shout and scream;
Dominating your thoughts and even dreams.

Let it not cross wire the brain;
Let it get away, let it drain.
Don't feed it with the desire;
It'll ruin, burn you down in fire.

It's not voodoo;
Neither black magic.
It's not something the dark wizards do;
It's hidden inside creating situations tragic.

Me, all that I can be! :P

I close my eyes and let free,
My mind on a crazy spree.
That's when the thoughts come streaming,
The smile, the laugh, the sobs, the screaming..

I maybe silent or quiet sometimes,
Feeling loss or words and conversational lines.
But then I turn to the retard mode,
Babble non-stop and shed the load..

I'm surrounded by jerks, undeniable fact,
To be with solitude seems a better pact.
But then I am careless socially,
I end up acting stupid usually..

My actions are termed to be kiddish flings,
I'm prone to having severe mood swings.
But then who wants to grow up being all sensible?
To find logic in a world where's none is reliable..

The world is freaky, maybe I'll always fear,
But I'll try and pretend not to care.
I might never cease to be stupid but a little steady,
To face more jerks, I'll try to ready..

:)